Carry-over cooking

You know how when you cook meat, there's that carry over cooking time. It still cooks after its out of the oven cause its so hot. I have carry over stress. I have been buggin' out this whole week, and now the stressors part of it is over, but I don't feel relieved. Probably because 1) don't think I did well enough to keep my B in math class. Which sucks because that consequentially means I will get a C. Although I hope I did well enough for a B. I do a very poor job at predicting my grades. And anyways. I have my period so I also feel horrific, and I feel very large. This summer I shall make a valient effort to lose weight. Possibly. I'm also not very good at achieving goals either.

I am a force to be reckoned with.

Has Anyone Seen My Wings? by The New Amsterdams

I'm a saint, I'm a bonified servant
an angel on a bar stool, anyone seen my wings?
I'm always losing the damn things.
I'm the glue, I'm a permanent fixture.
I'm an anchor in the concrete.
If I went to find my fate, the foundation would break.
Allies
I never had none, but that would be one to see, yeah.
I'm your fate, yeah, your looking in the future
There's a bitter old man who's under your skin,
but don't let him in.
Capsize
Did anyone catch me?
Nobody broke my fall.
yeah
I'm a saint on a mission from the head man.
You got a shoe start running boy leave him to us,
leave them in your dust.

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I have a math final I have to study for (and no note card! ack!!!) and I've been freaked out, so I lack sleep, and Aunt Flo has come to town, and I'm generally in a very cranky and vicious mood. I am a force to be reckoned with.

Snow Patrol

Snow Patrol, "Chasing Cars"

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own.
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel.
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?,

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life.

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see.
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all.

If I lay here,
If I just lay here,
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

ARUGH.

I am just so frickin frusterated. My chem teacher decideds to pull half of the stuff on the test out of no where, and I actually studied for that damn test and all I got was an 85%. Then she says it like we should know, when its mentioned like what one sentence in the book and she doesn't even go over it in class. She makes all this other stuff seem really important and then that's hardly even on the damn test. ARUGH. I am just so sick of all my stupid classes this term. I think this term I've learned the least, they try stuffing so much shit in my head that none of it stuck, I was just trying to get by on each test and each test had hardly anything to do with what i studied, so I forgot what I studied, I never learned what was on the test and now i'm screwed for the final. which sucks because I need to do well on the final. really well. I'm borderline on two of my grades, I have an 81% in math and a 90.7% in chem. I need to get a B in math so that my GPA doesn't drop toomuch, and since the hightest I can get in math is a B, I really need to get an A in chem.
STUPID FRICKIN IDIOTS. arugh. I hate this year. it sucked ass and I'm so glad to be done with it. I hope that next term when I only have 2 science classes it'll be a bit better. ....I am just soooooooo frusterated right now, it feels like it doesn't matter what I do, cause I've tried hard on the other tests...hasn't really gotten me anywhere. damnit.

Angels and Airwaves

I was never a huge fan of Blink-182, but I heard this song on the radio then found it on their website and I have just fallen in love with it! It's a really great song.

Angels and Airwaves
Click on "Videos" and then you can watch a short video
"The Adventure"

I wanna have the same last dream again,
the one where I wake up and I'm alive.
Just as the four walls close me within,
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight.
I'm the first to know,
my dearest friends,
even if your hope has burned with time,
anything that's dead shall be re-grown,
and your vicious pain, your warning sign,
you will be fine.

Hey, yo - here I am,
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin.

Any type of love - it will be shown,
like every single tree reach for the sky.
If you're gonna fall,
I'll let you know,
that I will pick you up
like you for I,
I thought this thing,
I can't replace.
When everyone was working for this goal.
We're all the children left without a trace,
only to come back, as pure as gold,
To recite this all.

Hey, yo - here I am,
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin.
Tonight, hey, yo,
here I am,
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin.
Tonight, hey, yo,
here I am,
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin.

I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me
I cannot live and I cannot breathe
unless you do this with me

Hey, yo - here I am (do this with me),
and here we go,
life's waiting to begin (do this with me).
Hey, yo - here I am (do this with me).
And here we go,
life's waiting to begin,
life's waiting to begin

sports fans

How can people be sports fans! It's like an emotional rollercoaster! my poor heart can't take it, especially since we're loosing :( that sucks especially since I was so happy when we were winning :) :) :)damnit i finally found something that made me happy!

back to finals and reality.

Playoff Fever :)

ETA: Here are the pics of me :) from that day [click on picture for larger version]





My nails made it on the "playoff beards page" ...so its not really a beard, but they said you could submit manicures also! :)


More Playoff Beards :)

Totally got playoff fever LoL. :) ah I'm so stoked for the sharks, I hope they can pull through and beat Edmonton 2 more times and make it to the conference finals baby! :D :D :D Went to the game on Sunday. San Jose on sunday was just madness! There was some parade going on, a cinco de mayo celebration, RENT was in town, a home and garden show and of course the playoff game! So we left here at like 2:00pm and got there at around 3:00, there were all these booths outside, a bunch of bmx ramps and some really good guys riding on them, there was a DJ and an inflatible slide and a face painting booth.

I hadn't gotten my face painted in a long time, so I decided to go get that done, there were only two girls at the booth and there were like 20 people in front of me, so I was waiting out there for about an hour, it was alright though, I was chattin' it up with this cool lady in front of me. :) I finally got up there and so I got #14 on one side and the sharks logo on the other. As I was getting it done, one of the photographers walking around started taking pictures and then this dude with a video camera came around and was video taping the me getting my face painted LoL. How weird, I wonder where it'll turn up? :)

The game was awesome :) I was sitting next to this really obnoxious loud lady ugh. and behind me was this really obnoxious dude..... but besides that it was a fun game :) and we won :D :D :D (Friggin refs are blind as bats)

Went to In n out for dinner LoL, but I still had all my sharks "regalia" on and my face all painted LoL so when I walked in a bunch of people asked me who won and how the game was..etc... that was a bit weird LoL but it was still a great night

anywhoo I'll post some pictures of the logo that was painted on my face later :) ...for now, math homework i've been putting off for most of the semister and chem presentation, and chem take home quiz and physics lab write up. ...hm :( going to games is a lot more fun. :)