AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. dude I soooooooo wish I had some guy friend. maybe that's what i need, I need things from a guys point of view. I guess Tiff's been having problem with Lilian and so now she comes to me. gee don't i feel special? so we had this long talk about life yesterday and then she kept talking about how in life these things will be so small, etc. and I'm thinking to myself, what is big? then I mean don't most people remember their high school sweethearts etc? so she goes and says she likes someone and stuff, and I told her to tell him, I never told ben because it wouldn't have mattered he was a year older than me, he's a senior now, i'm never going to see him again after this year and I haven't barely seen him this term! so that's lost. although i still do like him :) I just need a guy friend, some one I can talk to that's not a girl! right now they're irking me. I need to see some NEW people! people that don't already know "who i am" although do any of the really know? barely, I think Al, knows me the closest. I just need a C-H-A-N-G-E! ....change can be good and change can be bad, I'm always afraid of the worst outcome so I never take that chance, I should more often....so look where I am now, in the same place i was before.

i have a theory on how life correlates with a hampster and its wheel. I'll write it out later when I have the time.