feeling very much so better. My mom went out and she got pumpkin pie at nations and and pumpkin ice cream at loards :) she surprised me with it and let me eat it in the guest room on the bed. :) my mom's great she's so understanding and she always makes me feel better. even though i was crabby and cranky and really horrible this afternoon she forgives and finds ways to make it better like only mommy's can do. :)

i am cranky. i woke up with a headache and that always sucks. I have to do this stupid paper, there was an incident of pumpkin pie where someone gave my piece away which was not hers to give away and that really pissed me off. that was not helping. and i got a bad grade on my paper i thought i did well on again, not helping. i'm just so tense i need a massage. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. i wasn't absent at all last year, and i havn't been yet. sucks to be me because i'm going to go anyways, unless i really feel sick i'm going.
i do think that "sucks to be you!-grams" would do well....i'd send out a couple :D

In life I have a theory, a general one, not scientifically proven, but in life when there's something you can't have, you have a stronger desire to want it. I've learned that as it comes closer to becoming tangible, questions arise regarding how strong the desire is: How much do you really want it? That goal in life has been so refined, so polished and put so high on a pedestal it's almost difficult to see the original desire and that's okay, that is what dreams are for, dreams are perfection. They are things that may never happened and that's okay because they can never be tainted or tarnished in your mind. As you see that glimmer of possibility that you may be able to have it, it comes back down to reality and you begin to see the details and little nuances that maybe weren't visible before. What was once a dream in your own mind alone could possibly become reality and therefore be subjected to judgment, brutal criticism and dissaproval. Something you've wished for so long could possibly be the one thing you fear the most.

OKAY! sure. nothing happened at the party, i think because it was on friday night. and not that many people were there, and there were two couples which were occupied with each other and chrissy conked out early. i was super tired too and i didn't care too much if other people played video games. oh well.
not much now, i need to sign up for college and look into scholarships. take note.
drove for the first time at night today...not much different all the same to me. i guess i'm getting more used to it, not that i enjoy it any more.
people create too much drama. well DUH there are going to be people that you don't like in life, no one goes through life loving everyone. that's a given and if that's not well then you need to step into reality bub. people have some really immature ways of dealing with it though sometimes. people need to grow up and realized sometimes you JUST HAVE TO DEAL! ...stupid people make my head hurt. i probably make my head hurt a lot too HA!. if you can't laugh at yourself you are just going to go through life with a stick up your butt.