Sucks to have senior-itis still in the fall term lol. I'm getting so lazy in english, that is not good i suppose. I know i need to get it done, but i just have no motivation, and i'm lazy and it's hard. and i'm tired of writing about stuff i have no idea what to write about. I'm so glad this thanksgiving i needed a break, we need a day off in October.

I saw Down with Love...uh still not a huge fan of rene zeweiger (or how ever you spell it) kinda ruined the whole movie i just didn't see the chemistry there. not like in moulin rouge. head of state was kinda funny, wasn't too bad. definitely not one of those movies that makes you think.

Day after thanksgiving shopping is MADNESS!!! It was fun though :) except for disney where 2 of their 3 registers were broken and the line took for fricking ever. but i bought a couple of things for my friends and something for myself :) not too bad.

Crash and Burn By Savage Garden

When you feel all alone
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door
When darkness is upon your door
And you feel like you can't take anymore
And you feel like you can't take anymore


Let me be the one you call
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain
Because there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breathe again
You'll breathe again

When you feel all alone
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone
You're not alone

updated list of things to do before I die.
1. Visit the United Kingdom (including Scotland) and Ireland (if not even england at least Scotland and Ireland 1/3/03)
and most of Europe :D
2. Have a boyfriend
3. Have a boy friend
4. Have a new friend
5. Learn to surf
6. Do everything for myself for one day.
7. Go see Westlife live
8. Get close to a dolphin
9. screw number nine i suck at things artsy. lol.
10. Go to College
11. Have something romantic happen to me.
12. See the Northern Lights
13. Learn how to take artistic photographs
14. Learn how to drive a stick shift
15. Drive a 9-3 SAAB Convertable
16. Drive a manual Mini Cooper S :D

spirit week was good, the whole "running through the halls" sucked since WE DON'T HAVE HALLS. and it was just really tiring. so that was lame. We didn't really have much spirit, it kinda sucked that this was our last spirit rally, but i'm not even sure why we do it. our skit actually was good this time i'm really glad about that...i didn't do the float this year, too difficult to get a ride and all of that...oh well. the school still sucks no matter how much we yell '04. all of that really could have waited one more year, why did they have to mess everything up?
I remember reading this question not too long ago, "where did you think you'd be now, 10 years ago?" I was thinking about that....i thought being older than 16 is such a big deal...it's not. things are too much the same, i thought i'd be different, dress different, act different, i may act different much more cynical and bitter even though those feelings are quite unjustified. things in life done work as you plan them, they never are.
.......sucks to have trust issues. I'm not even sure why, it's just that certain things are difficult for me to say. I guess it's one of those psych. things if you say it, it really is true. I don't say things sometimes because i wonder how it will be perceived. I don't say things because i hate being dramatic, if it really is important i would say something, but it seems i never feel any issues are important enough. I don't think i could trust any one person with everything.
why do we always want what we cannot have? it makes everything in life much more difficult and a waste of time. it's that horrible glimmer of hope that drags us along like a dog on a leash. I want to keep my goals grounded and realistic, but there's also a part that just wants to aim high. why can't both be done?
sometimes you feel happy, sometimes you feel sad, sometimes remorseful, sometimes bitter, interesting how seemingly distant things like the television can so very easily change moods and perspectives. very interesting.