I dunno I have some guys that are just friends and I don't think of them as anything more and would never think of them as anything more because of who they are dating now and just because of their personality...but there is one guy that me and my friends have hung out with for a while (not too long, maybe about a full year) and when i first met him I wasn't like "omg he's so hot" or whatever :lol: but as the year went on, and I really got to know him the past 10 months, he's gotten to be a close friend...and then within the past 6 weeks i think my feelings have kinda changed for him....we kinda hang out more, and I guess flirt more...gah I hate that word "flirt" add that to my list of words I don't like... funny i saw this topic because today was like the "icing on the cake" for lack of a better term.

first of all, for the past month or so my friends have been teasing me and stuff saying we'll get married etc...just fooling around but i dunno...half of me kinda wants to believe it. I'm confused as freaking heck.
Me and him and another friend went shopping today and he said he had to get back by 5, i didn't really question it, i don't like to press people if they don't say i won't ask. but my other friend is very different and she decided to push and push it. so I only get intrigued when he refuses to say where he's going so we eventually squish it outta him and he says he's going on a date with someone else. It really felt like someone sucked the air outta me...I was floored. I was kinda shocked...and kinda hurt. But I dunno after about five seconds of shocked...ness LoL I realized well yeah of course...just of course. We kinda press for a name and it takes a long time, we never get one directly, but after 20 minutes of guessing and all...I ask and he says yes. The moment he said it, I really didn't believe him because for one that girl has a boyfriend and two she was the only one that I really told I may have some feelings for him (as freaking cliché as it might sound, she really wouldn't do that to me). I spent like 20 minutes yelling at him LoL and then we got to talking and it turns out we have a different definition of the word "date" he considers a date a guy and a girl going to dinner together. Me and my friend consider a date going to do something with someone that you want to be romantically involved with.
After I said that he kinda pondered...I asked him, now that he knows my definition of the word date, would he still use it under my terms to describe what he was doing that night and he never answered it, he just said "no, because it made you upset" and I tried to explain it doesn't matter what I think, would you explain what you are doing a date under my terms, romantic and all. he never answered me. that kinda sucked too. Once I found out his definition and who it was with, I guess I kinda didn't recognize it as a "date" under my terms and felt slightly more relaxed...Anyway that was a huge ordeal...

and I think...well I was surprised at first that he said he was going on a date, but I was even more surprised at my reaction. My other two friends always say "you can't date anyone etc." kinda messing around and stuff, I always say "what do you expect him to be a celibate or something?!" LoL and I figured it'd be all good if he dated, I mean he should find someone nice and all :D he deserves it :D but that day when he told us he was going on a date I was just....honestly shocked about how surprised and hurt I felt. I guess I wasn't expecting it to be this soon...