I think the only reason I was, and maybe am still so upset is the fact that Saturday night was suppose to make me feel better about not having someone on Valentine's Day since we were suppose to be watching chick flicks and all...and so when i couldn't go, it was like super isolation, not even being with the people who are alone. which makes me super alone. which sounds stupid. but yeah. i guess that's how i am. i don't know what i'm feeling, but whatever it is i'm sure feeling a lot of it. and my period isn't even here yet. but when it does i'm sure i should wear a sign that just says "WATCH OUT. DON'T EVEN GO THERE"

I'm just lying to myself hoping this couples thing is a phase even though in my most positive thoughts i know it's not. and i probably won't have anyone...optimistcally? ever.