spirit week was good, the whole "running through the halls" sucked since WE DON'T HAVE HALLS. and it was just really tiring. so that was lame. We didn't really have much spirit, it kinda sucked that this was our last spirit rally, but i'm not even sure why we do it. our skit actually was good this time i'm really glad about that...i didn't do the float this year, too difficult to get a ride and all of that...oh well. the school still sucks no matter how much we yell '04. all of that really could have waited one more year, why did they have to mess everything up?
I remember reading this question not too long ago, "where did you think you'd be now, 10 years ago?" I was thinking about that....i thought being older than 16 is such a big deal...it's not. things are too much the same, i thought i'd be different, dress different, act different, i may act different much more cynical and bitter even though those feelings are quite unjustified. things in life done work as you plan them, they never are.
.......sucks to have trust issues. I'm not even sure why, it's just that certain things are difficult for me to say. I guess it's one of those psych. things if you say it, it really is true. I don't say things sometimes because i wonder how it will be perceived. I don't say things because i hate being dramatic, if it really is important i would say something, but it seems i never feel any issues are important enough. I don't think i could trust any one person with everything.
why do we always want what we cannot have? it makes everything in life much more difficult and a waste of time. it's that horrible glimmer of hope that drags us along like a dog on a leash. I want to keep my goals grounded and realistic, but there's also a part that just wants to aim high. why can't both be done?
sometimes you feel happy, sometimes you feel sad, sometimes remorseful, sometimes bitter, interesting how seemingly distant things like the television can so very easily change moods and perspectives. very interesting.