Okay things are gravy now...dad just uses the puter in the guest room. Tomorrow night I'm having a what started out as a sleep over now seems to be just tiff and I celebrating my birthday. it's actually quite depressing to think about it....I invited Chrissy and Janice and Alex. I was never sure about chrissy and janice, chrissy told me straight up that she didn't think she could stay over, but it took years for janice to respond. I kept on asking her she said she would ask her parents, but that never seemed to work out...I guess she couldn't even stay the day...but she could spend the day with linda. oh well. and Chrissy doesn't even think she can stay the day...oh well. I went to her birthday party. oh well. Alex was a good to go...up until today apparently, she got grounded and might be able to make it...might not. I kinda know her parents, and I think her parents like me so since it's me they might let her go, but it's really iffy now...I'm trying not to think about it because it really is depressing. none the less...I have a happier story to tell also.

I really do have a wonderful family, all over. I always knew this, but this is the first time I've seen it truly in action. My mom's been gone to Canada and everyone knows that so they've all been helping out. If my mom were here she's probably get us pizza and a cake and make dinner as usually etc. but since she's not my aunt's picking me up a pizza and my cousin's making me cream puff's instead of a cake because I've never made them and she said they're really easy to make so that's her half gift to me. :) Auntie Karen also let me stay over her house for three days while mom was gone and took real good care of me and I had a fun time with the boys. She also bought us tamales for our dinner which'll last us a couple of days. :D It's been really wonderful to know to be reassured that I do have a wonderful family that truly cares for me and my family.

Tonight I learned I the type of person who doesn't do something unless I have to like really have to. Tonight I did the laundry and washed my own dishes and cut up carrots and celery for my "party" and dried and put away the dishes and folded up the laundry. All stuff mom would normally do or i'd ask her to. But since she's not here it wouldn't have gotten done otherwise, it was weird I didn't complain about it at all...when push comes to shove I'll do what needs to be done.