"So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinkin' of
If tomorrow never comes."

Easier said than done.

...that smiling thing...it's done and over with, most days it's just too hard.

Smiling

I've found that I hardly smile, outside of being with my friends. I'm now making a semi-concious effort to smile more often. "Never frown because you never know who's falling in love with your smile." Sounds like a bunch of BS but hey it looks good.

Saturday I went "shopping" with Al, we went to Marina Square, we spent like 45 minutes in Old Navy, she bought a shirt and a pair of PJ pants. Then we went to Starbucks and I had my third Frappachino ever. I am deprived of coffee because my mom freaks out if she even thinks I drink coffee. Which is why I can remember ever time I've had one.
1. Family went outlet shopping in Vacaville and Uncle bought me my first one. (fall of 1998)
2. Dad and cousin and me in a car on the way to Lake Tahoe, stopped 3/4 of the way there and dad bought one. Dad's cool and doesn't freak because I tell him it's not a regular thing. (Around Memorial Day 2001)
3. Shopping with Al (March, 2, 2002)

I have a sad life, the hightlight of my day is a cup of coffee. Sad yes I know. Haven't talked to him in forever....since finals. Sucks.

I wish I had more guts I really do. I really am trying to make a concious effort to smile...It's sad when your muscles get sore from one smile because you haven't in such a long time.



See? even the Brain knows how to smile! :D

Wow...It's been awhile since I've posted...nothing really too new. Al downloaded the movie for me..she totally rocks....Mr. Del's class hasn't taken the place of second period, I don't think anything ever will.

Whoo hoo! Found my book AND my soundtrack. Went to Union City and to Borders to get my book and then to Best Buy to get my CD. CD is mainly rock...book is less cheezy than the movie but I still love it! :D
School's going alright, I dunno...It still it weird not having second period any more, maybe first block with Mr. Del will make that a little bit better maybe not.
I think Tiffany and I are having some problems, I dunno I just can't seem to do anything right. Maybe it's just my personality... if so I can try to change and she can try to change...but it'll probably pass. She may just be tense because her cousins are here from Tawain.

P.S. I had RAW fish today! MUAHAHAHAHA. Don't get it? Read the very first entrie.

Went to an early Chinese New Year dinner tonight with Auntie Kathy, Uncle David, Auntie Pam, Uncle Wilbur, Erin, Auntie Pam's parents, Mom, Dad and Jamie. Erin was waaaaaaaay fussy tonight, but when is she not? We went to a different resturant besides Mr. Fong's it was alright, tons and tons of food.

Before I went to the restaurant, I went to help with the set up for the crab feed at the Boys and Girls Club. I helped serve last year and I don't I'd do it again, but this year for the set up some of my friends were there so it wasn't as bsd because for the serving I didn't know anyone. and that sucked. During the set up I talked with Tiffany (of couse) and after I talked with Charlie, Jeff and Benny. Charlie and Jeff are a bit on the weirder side and Benny is annoying but fun to debate with. So I did that for an hour after we were all done.

I also went shopping with Mom to Standford Shopping Center. Wow things there are very expensive muy muy upscale. Mom went to Bloomingdales for a Saturday sale to buy Auntie Kelly some good knives and we also bought towels. I STILL haven't found the book A Walk To Remember NOR the CD SOUNDTRACK! GEEZE WHAT'S WITH YOU PEOPLE? WHY WON'T YOU CARRY THE FRICKIN SOUNDTRACK? I'VE SEEN EVERY OTHER SOUNDTRACK EXCEPT THE ONE I WANT! HELLO!!!!!!!

The chicken side of me is coming out, but you can't blame me, he was talking to a girl. If he was looking like a loner with no one to talk to I'd go to talk to him, but he'd never look like a loner, does that mean I'll never talk to him? maybe.